Thin people: listen up

Thin people like to tell me what I should do to loose weight. As if I don't know.

Just yesterday, I told someone that I needed to loose about 10 pounds if I ever want to fit in a beautiful pair of black pants I once bought in a moment of overconfidence. This someone has the figure of a supermodel. "Well", she replied happily, "you just need to eat right. Have a good breakfast and...."

As if I don't know, haha. I'm not huge or anything, but definitaly NOT shaped like a supermodel. More like a woman Rubens would paint, the only difference being that my boobs do match my butt. And ofcourse, I have tried to get the body of a supermodel. I can tell you exactly what to do to loose weight.

I have lost weight. Pounds and pounds and pounds. And always gained them back. This has two reasons:

1. 'Bad' genes. My grandmothers are both blessed with a stout figure, most of the women in my father's family have huuuuuuge derrières.
2. I looooove food. I love eating it, I love being in the kitchen.

Actually, my eating habits are not at all bad, I'd like to believe. Plenty of fruit, vegetables, grains and loads of variation. Allright, and an extra spoonful of mayonaise with my french fries, on occasion. But my diet looks so much more healthy than some of my skinny friends'. One of them just doesn't eat for a couple of days if she gains half a kilo.

So please, you lovely looking skinny ladies, don't judge. There's no skinny person inside of me trying to get out, there's a Rubenesque woman feeling trapped inside when I'm going through a skinnier phase. Believe you me.

What the hell are those soccer hooligans thinking? It seems to me that calling the rival camp of idiots on their cell phones to meet in some pour guy's bar or in some town where people are trying to sleep is nothing short of the poorest excuse to have a war éver.

No, I don't understand sports. Yes, I am a woman. If men enjoy watching other men (in shorts!) running around on a field while chasing a little black and white ball: fine with me. It keeps you fit. I like my men to be in shape. No problems so far.

But when it comes to men using a soccer team as a replacement of their own identity, as I have witnessed them do, I just get sad and discouraged about the fate of mankind. Grown men with tattoos of 'their' soccer team, who are nervous about the next game days in advance and heartbroken when their team loses. I don't get it. I just really, really don't.

To me, it is the most unattractive thing in the whole world if a man lacks an identity of his own in such a way that he just adopts the identity of a sports team. Or that of a political party, corporation or band.

But the epitomy of sad is when he combines this lack of self with an overdose of testosterone, and invents a little war between 'his' team and the other. All in order to feel like a man for once.

It just makes me sad.

Spongebobbing

There's a Spongebob-episode in which Spongebob has to study for an exam. All he does, however, is think of reasons not to study. All of a sudden, his kitchen needs immediate cleaning. Or his pet snail Gary needs a new bowl of food. Stat!

This has led to a new verb we use at home: 'Spongebobbing'. If it were in the dictionary, it would say something like 'to procrastinate doing what truly needs to be done urgently by imagening other stuff that needs to be done even more urgently.'

I'll give you one lucky guess as to what I'm doing right now... Bingo! Although, in the office, there's no pet snail, no kitchen or such things, there's enough I can think of that is easier and more fun than doing what I'm supposed to be doing right now.

Like writing a new blog. Checking my hotmail, gmail, myspace, facebook and any other email or networkingwebsite I can think of. By calling my boyfriend to whine about how I'm spongebobbing my day away. Etcetera ad infinitum.

*Sigh* OK fine, I'll get to work!

The horror of buying pants

A horrible experience every single time: buying a new pair of pants or jeans. Especially with a butt like mine.

About a year and a half ago, I went into a local store to buy something very basic, let's say a t-shirt or something. While skimming through the racks of clothing, I came across a pair of jeans that looked kinda nice. Wearily, I went to try them on. Miraculously, it fit!

The girl behind the counter must have been happy with me, because not only did I buy a t-shirt, I left the store with 2 identical pairs of jeans.

Normally, for me, buying jeans means trying on about 20 pairs, a lot of cursing, swearing not to eat a single scrap of food ever again and occasionally even some tears.

So you can imagine why, when finally finding a pair that fits, I bought 2.

Here comes the bad part: both pairs are now in jeans heaven. They were totally worn down, and I can't possibly get away with wearing them anymore. Where's the 1990's when you need them?!

If grunge were still 'happening', I wouldn't have to go through the horror of realizing that the time has come to go out, keep my head up high and walk into a store to ask the size 0 girl for a jeans in my size.

Who am I kidding? Chances are that I'm going to order a stack of denim online, choose the one that looks the least bad, and send the rest back. Thank goodness for online H&M!

Sakura, baby!

Although I had been planning to get a tattoo since I was about 12 years old, it was still quite the shocker when the tattoo-artist I had 'chosen' texted me last monday. He'd had a cancellation, and was therefor able to do my tattoo the next day!

My tuesday was one of total terror. My stomach hurt all day long, because I was soooooo nervous. Was I ready for this? Was I making a huge mistake?

The thing is: all the tattoo-designs I drew for myself in the past decade or so, I kept in a drawer for about three months. My deal with myself was, that if I still liked it three months later, I'd get tattood.

Ofcourse, I never did still like what I saw when I opened the drawer again.

But the cherry blossom always struck me as beautiful, mainly because of it's double symbolism. In China, the cherry blossom is a symbol of female beauty. In Japan, it symbolizes how sweet but short life is. A very pretty alternative to the European memento mori-pictures.

So for the last year or so, I've been thinking about getting these pretty flowers. Not the toughest tattoo, but it suits me. Since I was a little girl, I could not understand why some people throw their lives away, seemingly without realizing that you only have one - mortal - life.

So I took my sketches to the tattoo shop. Before I realized it, three sakura flowers were on my back. I love them!